Annnd now???

I have five days before I hit my due date.  The end is in sight, hopefully.  Within the past few days I've experienced a little back pain, but nothing major.  Mainly pain one would experience right before getting their period, girls you all know what I'm talking about.   Not to mention a little contractiony, which have been those braxton-hicks I've heard so much about, and feel more like cramps.  But they go away when I move around, which is to be expected.  It's when they don't go away after moving around that I need to pay attention to.  I just wish I knew when it would happen for real!  I can't stand the waiting!!!  I'm sure there's nothing more nerve wracking than poopin' out a kid, but I just want it to get here!  I'm sure with my luck I'll be the girl who goes a week or more past her due date even after trying every method at home to pop this kid out.  I keep thinking I should put down the cheapo shower curtain I bought on the bed to sleep on should my water break in the middle of the night.  They say that only 10% of pregnant women's water breaks, and I'm sure I'll be in that 10%.  However, when I remember, I'm usually already laying in bed, and these days it takes about 10 minutes for me to gt situated.  So by then I don't want to get up to, lay down a curtain and get resituated.  I probably should considering what has the potential to exit out of me won't come out of my mattress, and then we're screwed.

Tonight I went to Target and bought a chest vaccum, otherwise referred to as a breast pump.  It's a little awkward telling someone you have to go to Target to buy a breast pump.  Usually when I tell them they look at me like they were embarrassed they asked.  The other day I walked into the bathroom at work and I heard what sounded like a cell phone set on vibrate going off.  But the noise didn't stop.  I then realied it was a new mom using her breast pump.  I couldn't help but laugh to myself, trying hard to contain my laughter.  Once I got out of the bathroom I laughed to myself out loud.  I will never pump at work in the bathroom.  We have a mother's room made designed for that.  Now, I've never had to use a breast pump, but I've read several articles that you tell you, you can't really pump at certain times during the day.  It's more of a "you're leaking and need to go now" type of thing.  And maybe that's what happened in the situation I happened to walk into.  That noise though, I will never forget.  Whomp, whomp, whomp, hahahahaha. 

I do feel more at ease now that we have picked a pediatrician....sort of.  I have set up an appointment to meet with one next Wednesday.  For those of you keeping track that's three days after my due date.  Which apparently isn't a big problem.  But to me, I feel like I've somehow let my child down already, and may or may not affect her for life.  I'm sure she'll be just fine.....maybe.