So this child has been inside me for 32 weeks. 32 weeks of not being able to buy any new clothes for myself other than maternity clothes. 32 weeks of not being able to have a beer. 32 weeks of gearing up and buying supplies necessary for this baby. Roughly 32 weeks of not being able to lay on my back to fall asleep, which is one of my favorite positions. Having to lay on either my left or right side so I can breathe making the respective arm fall asleep, and at times my hip falling asleep. 32 weeks of having to get up in the middle of the night, every night, to get up to pee - sometimes twice a night. 32 weeks of the increasing urge to pee every hour during the day. Only now am I getting to the point of getting stretch marks on my once unmarked belly. Nearly 32 weeks of getting winded as I walk up two sets of stairs every day, numerous times a day at work. Having to scoot to the end of a chair or couch to get up since month six. Grunting everytime I have to bend over to put on socks or a pair of pants. Developing cankles.
And what's it all for? So I can get up numerous times a night to feed or rock a crying baby? To change a dirty diaper 20 times a day? To have to change the baby's outfit once or twice a day because of a blowout? To have sore boobs? To have my boobs leak everytime there's a crying baby? The continuing urge of having to pee all the time when I hardly had to pre-pregnancy? The added weight that will remain after the baby is born?
And what do I get out of it??????
The mere satisfaction of having the bundle of joy in my arms in 6-8 weeks. Seeing that baby in my arms, a baby that Heath and I produced look up at me and smile. Knowing that there will be another living being completely dependent on me. And I'm more than ok with it. I can't wait until our little girl is here. I want to see who she becomes as a person. I want to know her likes and dislikes. I want our friends and family to be great influences in her life. More importantly I can't wait for her to get here so I can see the bits and pieces of Heath and I in her. Hurry and get here!!!!
